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happppeeeeeeee teeeechers dayyyyyyyyyyyyyy! =))

oh oh TDC was fun=) well done TDC ADHOC! despite the last minute changes to wet weather programme, i must say it turned out pretty good yay!

went to school at 630 to blow balloons heehee i kept blowing pink and orange ones! blahh, then found out our poor lignum board kinda crashed so had to do damage control! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhh. oh and chong liang is very very sporting thanks super LIGNUM MAN! =)) he willingly dressed up for lignum and all, was really grateful =)) WE WON THIRDDDD! oh yay. haha. oh yes, council skit was wootilicious funny! *grin*

after concert went around cam-whoring! teeheehee. i think celine is such a brave girl muahhahaha *wink* and hmphhs. i shall make you apologize 100times before i forgive you! LOL. nahh, im a nice girl =)) its ok cel! don't fret! i still love you=))

MARCUS NG IF YOU EVER JACK ME UP WITH KELVIN AGAIN I WILL PERSONALLY JACK YOU UP WITH ______ AND _______. my motto? you slap me once i slap you back. TWICE AS HARD. just so you know =))

okay on to our class reunion!!! WAHHHHH. haha, met aneesa and kimmie up at orchard earlier to talk talk talk!!! (we're such talkative people!) oh it was fun updating each other bout our LIVES. heeeeheeeeeeee. then met with the class and of course our other one-quarter STUPID DISHA! WHO REFUSED TO TAKE A PHOTO WHY AM I NOT SURPRISED YOU DISHMOOOO! went seoul garden to eatttt =) basically did a lotta the " who and who is attached!", " who and who is popular!" and " who and who is in what cca!" type of thing. haha. oh met md fadhli and his whole class there too. quite a nice meal with all the cam-whoring ( YES ME KIM AND ANEESA are cam whores! especially me who can take self pictures decently heehee) and not forgetting kim's klutziness which she transferred to meee!

after eating me kim and aneesa only had like 20mins left before we had to leave. so left the group and CHIONGed to wisma to grab my orange shoes ( OH YES I BOUGHT SHOCKING ORANGE SHOES!) and chionged to cine to take neos!!!!! =)) super rushed but hey they turned out super great! =)) yay! I LOVE! im so happy!

i miss miss miss miss miss miss my dearest aneesa kimmie and disha so bad!!!!

oh i wanna experience tk life again. just for a day please? especially the turning around to gossip with kim in class part. i miss!

=))

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is today "lets catch up with old friends" day or what?
HAHAHA.

msging aneesa the whole day...
kimmie called...
jiawen suddenly talked to me online...
CINDY LAU suddenly talked to me online...

woah. those TK days. i miss!

oh oh oh i didnt mug much did the lignum photos and spoilt the shop's machine OHMY.

oh yes, having a 19-ppl msn convo with council was cute =))
oh and i should add "talking to _ after a MILLION YEARS" into the category above too. except you arent exactly TK-ish eh? HAHAHA.

and to my dear seniors: GOOD LUCK FOR GEEPEE TML =))

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happy things...

like walking outta the side gate during lunch to go eat mgs nasi lemak...
like seeing those primary school transparent POP drinks all over again...
like msging my dearest aneesa who i realised can totally crack me up for no apparent reason...
like organising a 4e1 class gathering...
like going to the library with the whole chinablack clique and talking+giggling so loudly and taking pictures!
like coming up with dirty lines with my house affiliates
like saying the word like EIGHT times, like totally!!!

=)) oh life is good. in certain aspects. in others.... oh wells. haha.

4E1 REUNION ON THURSDAY! BE THERE OR BE NO LONGER A SEXY CUMCUMBER!!! HAHAHA. PROBABLY 130PM IN TOWN THOSE WHO ARE COMING MESSAGE ME OR MY DEAR VICE CHAIRMAN HUANGGGG!!! YAY. =))

oh and i would just like to continue saying how much i love msging aneesa, yes though sometimes i AM such a pig who forgets to reply, i still love smsing you!! haha believe me you frog! after all who else can i exchange msges with like FOUR TOPICS in one msg! or make me laugh at my phone like an idiot! or when i say lets watch the devil wears prada only one person in this whole world will answer: what was that random statement for. and then: are u wearing prada? LMAO. you crack me uppppp! haha. oh and no one else would also ask: hows _? his worthy supporter needs to know how's he fairing ( faring spelt wrong!)!!! well the answer is not close at all now but oh wells thats how life is i guess. life changes. people change. oh and if ure reading this you probaby know who you are since YOUR NUMBER ONE FAN IS QUITE OBVIOUS HAHAHA.

a happy day nevertheless =) no school tomorrow. even better =)

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NEW NIKE SHOESSSS!

OH YAY. life is good =))
met up with the yellow ducks for PW today! took a pretty short while so after that me and choonie mugged at the HANs at national library =)
quite a productive mugging session, we are both *ahem* quiet people so we did a lot! haha. only talked when we saw our neighbour's chicken chop look soooo good and decided to split one =)

almost forgot, before we mugged we walked inside the national lib and this police guy asked us if we wanted to watch this screening of a movie. we decided why not and he checked our bags and let us in. it was this israel movie all in the israel langauge ( idunno what its called) and was pretty confusing. interestingly, quite a number of people were there ( ok i mean more than 5 less than 10 hahaha) but since we didn't really know what it was about, or how long it was we left after 10mins and the policeguy seemed to be laughing as if he knew we were uncultured people who cant appreciate an israel film HMPHHS. hahaha.

after that went bugis to look for shoessssss but nothing nice so i went my dearest favourite place in the world TAKA and bought this nice pair of nikes. yay! shall wear it tml. haha but its almost 200bucks ouchhhh heart pain!

oh but i like it =)

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dance was a gloomy 8 people affair but luckily cikgu, as usual, made it pretty fun =)
asked around for suggestions fow new eye candies today heeheehee. shall go check out the one fur mentioned =)
oh and mcflurry with duying weet xiaoying and fur was nice too yay=)

i just realised medication and mugging do not go well together. but at least i did superposition 2 tutorial today *GRIN*

yellow ducks PW meeting tml! yay. the last time we met outside we had so much fun with all the dirty-mindedness HEH HEH HEH.

okay shall sleep. oh and i just realised some news spread really quickly. but some that you WANT to know just reach you so slowly. urgh. whatever.

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oh *PIANK!* i feel like cursing. ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.
HMPH.
i hope its just a baseless rumour. seriously.

crashed my senior class civics today. hmph s22 not nice to me laaaa. so difficult. crashing s16 the other day was a much easier time. they were nice! s22 so dao!!!! LOL. oh wells. tsktsk, im your junior you know! and MICHELLE DAJIE! tutorial-ing! HMPH. haha.

ermmmmm i think im unlucky! HMPH. dinner with kel at coro then my mum's BEST FRIEND saw us OHMYFREAK. life just rocks doesnt it? every single time this sorta things happen to me. oh darn.

mugged with md pple till like 9 again. i think we should change MDS to MUG DAILY SOCIETY. we dominate the LIBRARY AT NINE!! haha. me jo duying qihan and xianglong were walking out side by side with SP. then we were saying how smart xl and qihan are and suddenly SP whispered: yeah smart at creating trouble.

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHHAAH.
tsktsk xianglong! qihan! what mischief you created ar!

LOL.

oh yes, i just realised the sense of deja vu is back.

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and so, my file was found at the left side of the grandstand this morning. and i've never been to the left side of the grandstand in my entire life in nj except once i think. and my file is currently extremely extremely thin. tseruey says i look really weird with such a flat file.

tennis with tseruey during PE =) helping her improve for *ahem ahem*. ah wells, at least we didn't lose any balls today =)

OH OH ms amelia heng today came to me and asked:

sam, are you interested in doing some modelling?
?!?!?!?!??!?!?!?
very simple one, no need to talk (who says im scared of talking hee!) just pose for camera can already!
ermmmm... for what?
oh, we got JJ drinks for sponsors for open day, in return they want models for their poster. so you pretty girl must model mahhh
* BIG EGOISTICAL GRIN*

HAHAHAHAHA. OKAY, shall not be so ego, i bet she just said that cos i was a bit hesistant to agree. LOL. and maybe i really did pass my recent econs test and she's so happy with me. HEH. but nevertheless, MODELLING! muahhaha im gonna be famous. i remember last year sly did a poster for JJ drinks too! WHEEEEEEE. i love SLY. HEH. okay out of point but oh wells. jonathan leong rocks too =)

went home told my mum and she was like " how much time will that waste?". OKAYYYY. this reminds me of the time when i was 7, i got talent scouted for channel 8's tv progamme thingie and my mum said NO cos she says primary one is a very very very very important year.

YEP. TOTALLY.

blahhh. totally random but today's long bus ride on 67 was so sucky. urghhh. i hate old perveted lechers! and on bus 38 after that, i sorta embarrassed myself oooops. shan't say it here but those who wanna know... ASK =))




the only constant in life is change.
sometimes i don't want change.
i don't like losing the past.


maybe i just dont wanna grow up.

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OH I HATE YOU WHOEVER YOU ARE YOU FRIGGING FILE KOPER!

today after school left my bag and file in the canteen extension while i went to buy some food with jo. when we came back it was ......... GONE. KAPUT. NOTHING LEFT. ZILCH.

and the thing is the file was actually under my bag. ie. you NEED to lift my bag to take it. which makes it all the more scarier cos its obviously not an accident.

oh and phoebe's bag of costume which she ALSO left at canteen extension is gone too. i think we should seriously think of placing tracking devices on all our belongings.

on a brighter note, mugged in the library till 9pm with jo today. not bad, we kept really quiet when we mugged, then when we took breaks we talked alot. HAHAHA. the guilty conscience of talking in the library was looming overhead. which was why we got such a shock when qihan scared us while we were NOT MUGGING but talking. hmphhs. oh and tse ruey's flying thing is such an ass i can't believe it.

urgh. no mood to type anymore.
whoever who accidentally took my file, please please do return it to me or im screwed for promos.
AND IF YOU ACTUALLY FREAKING STOLE IT I HAVE NOTHING TO SAY.

im leaving it up to your conscience. if you have one in the first place.

oh oh, i sound like such a pissed bitch. WHICH I AM RIGHT NOW.

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OH MY FREAK I LOST MY FILE I AM SO SCREWEDDDDDDD.

left my file in TA17 i think. oh shoot. it contains:

1. my very very nice handwritten econs notes which i took 2 days to write!
2. my original econs notes
3. my math integration notes ALL and differentiation and maclaurins! ( you reaslise all these are topics to study for tml's test and im deaddd cos i cant even study it now)
4. MY PHYSICS SPA NOTES! (OMG PHYSICS SPA TMl THIS IS ALEVELS!!!!!!! OMGOMGOMG IM DEAD FOR MY AS SHITTTTTTTTTTTTT. KILL ME)

so today i rushed home to mug all of that and now i realised im freaking free cos i dun HAVE anything to mug. oh kill me. kill me. kill me. how to pass math? and worse is PHYSICS SPA this is ALevels we're talking about why dont someone just murder me and end my misery?? SOB.

and of course, nj has a reputation of people koping notes left lying around oh nooooooooooooooooooo.

apart from this horrible loss, today was actually a GOOD day ( now its ruined!) econs test was like the best test i've taken in nj... ie. i dont think im getting a single digit! but this excludes that online econs mcq test which i got full marks for cos im just a natural at MCQs HEH. oh oh and i signed up for OBK with kelvin heeheeee actually was still deciding until kel said something that was a HUGE swaying factor muahahhaa.

OH i stole your number HEEEEEEE.

OK NOW OFF TO STUDY NON EXISTENT NOTES.

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my bout of food poisoning has left. only to be replaced by..........................................

a cold, a blocked nose, slight fever and sore throat.

urgh. grogginess and mugging DO NOT go together.

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my brain is exploding.

finished my integration2, which means this is my reward hahaha. well, i say its finished but i can't do all the star questions of qn6 cos its already 1am now, and i've been mugging non-stop since 9pm ( because i've been busy the entire morning and afternoon!) which also means my brain is DEAD. urghhh. a new cup of coffee every hour, im having bloodshot eyes and the too much caffiene feeling.

missed dance today cos of ndc's AAR. hmphh. i don't like missing sat's dances cos cikgu totally cracks me up HAHAHA. but oh yes ndc rocks=) love each and everyone of you! heeeeeeeeeeee i cant wait to go for our NDC lunch after promos. yay.

went for the IsL meeting for myanmar omg its ALL IPs there. like 20plus 30 IPs? and only 3 mainstream? HAHAHA. the house was like the nicest house ive ever seen in my ENTIRE life. im so impressed =) played table tennis HEEHEE woonjeck simply cannot hit the ball. ate quite a lot of nice food with peiyi ( yes we greedy pigs!) and then had meeting. im in LEARNING =)) yay. doing the cultural performance thing with dexian hahaha, how come im ALWAYS doing performance eh? just like ndc. ohhh but i love performance =) yay. muahahhaa i shall do chinese dance and dex shall do malay dance right. HEH.

oh oh forgot to mention i have a super super lag phone. msged kelvin at like 7 today and when i saw him at 8plus, he still hasnt recieved it. only got it like at 10plus? peiyi worse, i msg her and she has not recieved it EVEN NOW OMGGGG. and i recieve msgs 3hrs late too. oh dear. am i cursed not to have a hp or what? stupidddd phone.

OK shall go sleep and wake up early tml to finish up the star qns with a CLEAR mind=) oh yes, thanks dexian's dad for the lift=) and HAPPY BIRTHDAY DUYING MY DEAR GIRL! love ya=)

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oh oh im blogging. but yes, like what michelle said about her diet, its healthier to let herself indugle in chocs once a week cos with a reward system you can really go further. so i guess this can apply in mugging too=) every tutorial i end i get to blog once MUAHAHAHA. but a short one though.

ok then, this is just to congratulate myself for FINALLY FINALLY completing intergration 1 and learning half of econs chapter 5 =) mugged in school till like NINE with duying and qihan today OMG. im so proud of myself, i no longer feel a sense of SHAME to mug in public HEEHEEHEEEEEEEE. this weekend i shall complete: integration2, intergration3, econs chapter5 anddd study physics SPA =) oh yayy. i actually sound quite hardworking LMAO.

oh yes, wanna thank my dearest dajie for pei-ing me go orchard on wed to collect my SIM card. talking was fun and the jap noodles were nice =) yay. thanks michelle. and STOP DIETING!!! lol.

okok, continue mugging tutorial2. ermmms, NDC AAR tml followed by myanmar lunch thing followed by tuition. oh kill me.

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okay, so lets just pretend it doesnt hurt at all and get on with life.
ignorance is bliss after all. *rub rub rub* im erasing what you said from my memory =)

after all, i need all the memory space i can get. promos in what 5 weeks? omigod.
no more blogging nonononononononooooo. if i need to vent, just do what i used to do in sec 4, tackle math questions furiously while blasting 987 in the background=)

bye bye blogger!! cya after promos =)

my 3-word motto:

PROMOTE OR DIE.

heh.

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dance prac today. it felt weird. was actually an extremely hilarious and fun practice, what with cikgu's especially crappy jokes today and all the interesting stuffs we did. enoyed prac very much and yet, it felt.................. empty. all of a sudden our circle became teeny and it seemed alot quieter. yes, there were some attempts at trying to feel the gap, like minh playing with the mike, wilbert being himself which naturally reminded us of XL, duying going around making ppl bend and correcting move ( just like yana)................. but heck, it just feels weird. i miss the seniors. i miss being a little junior being taken care of them. i miss all the noise. i miss all the people. and most of all, i just miss them. period. urghhhhhh.

reality HAS sunken in, i suppose.

yes, time for an entire entry dedicated to my seniors. all those words that i might have said already, or havent had a chance to................ here you go my dear seniors. my dedication to all of you. enjoy =)

QIHAN
- guess i'll consider you the senior i was closest to until something happened( but lets not talk about that anymore) LOL. the crappiest person ive ever ever known. how many nicknames do we have already? dao monk, student, santa, mickey mouse etc etc......... you CRAPPER! hahaha. the best person to crap with ever, despite you appearing so serious usually! must be the gemini thing HEH. geminis rock!!! okay, im going like really outta point here! but thanks for being such a great senior, fun to talk to and all =) shall always remember the first time i met you HAHAHA. oops, i mean HOHOHO. at the mrt we were like msging each other while standing 3 feet apart!!! heehee. oh and you had a very very bad sore throat which makes u sound really weird and me and duying were giving each other weird looks about it HEEHEEEHEEEEEE. and despite barely knowing you, you crapped with me so much online and via sms that i actually felt wayyy less apprehensive bout entering MD so early and all so THANKEW=) and yes, you were a GREAT and NICE STUDENT to have too *ego boost!* (since this is what the deluded monk thinks--> if this is familiar think the vday card thingie!) ;P oh and if you ever feel like turning to a nun before ns begins, ask me for thailand contacts ya? ;P but anyway, thanks for being such a great pres =)

NANI
- naniiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiii!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ahhhh, still remember the very very first md prac i went you were the one who taught me and duying everything and kept telling us so much funny stuffs that i felt at ease immediately!! HEH. like: " we're supposed to be punctual. SUPPOSED. but iff mrs tan is not here..............................." and " we're SUPPOSED to tuck in our shirts but.......... *laughs*" and " the girls usually just rest and gossip while the guys train and train HAHAHAHA". LOL!!!! felt super at ease =) THANKEW nani! you've been a fantastic vice pres! =D a great senior and DUH a great friend. shall miss all the cursing and swearing HEHEHEHE. and also all the crazinesssssssss! dont worry, i shall try to uphold your crazyness tradition *GRIN* LIT STUDENTS UNITE!!!! okay, i think im random but that thought just came along HEH. love your sense of humour=) love your laughter=) love your BUTT SHAKING MUAHAHHAHA. oh yes and thankew so so so so much for taking out the splinter and having to suffer through my endless curses TEEHEE. and when u become my friend's sister in law, dont forget to invite me to the wedding =P LOVE YA NANI!!!

YANA
- YANAAAA!!!! the most photogenic person ive ever seen!! *SMILES* also the most dedicated dancer EVER! woah, i really admire your meticulousness ( is there such a word heh) and I PROMISE TO BEND MORE YANA!!! =) thanks for being such a great senior, can really tell you care for the juniors alot alot alot and im so happy to be one of your juniors =) oh yes LIT STUDENTS UNITE!!! hahahha. ok random again i know. but thanks for everything yana, youve been a fantastic secetary ( spell?) *muacks!*

DINIE
- *some weird screehing howling yelling shrieking sound in the background!* miss your crazy sounds loads and loads and loads!!! haha, you never ever fail to crack me up whether its with those soounds! or dangerous stunts or climbing to the dangerous part of the school near the tennis courts OMG! thanks for making dance pracs so noisy and amusing and funny! not to mention the beatboxing omg you're like so talented!! and of course, the best dancer we have =) shall miss all your noises and stunts dearly. thanks for rocking md pracs =) ps. i know a lotta girls who think ure hot HEEHEEHEE. *wink* go figure!

ERNI
- pretty pretty pretty erni =) omg never met anyone who can do make up SO WELL! im so jealous!! HAHAHA. okay, thanks for being such a nice senior to hang aroung =) i think you're like such a pro QM!!! if i had to do all that you do......................... i'll die!!! hahaha. still remember you once said to me: sam we're very alike..................................................both very vain people!!!! HAHAHA. OEI! i would like to take this opportunity to announce that im NOT vain OKAY. hmphhhs. LOL. but thanks for being such a nice and pretty senior. shall miss your wonderfull make up skill loads and loads HEH. love! =)

FADHLI
- the most gentle guy ive ever known!! =) you know we're in the era where SNAG = sensitive new age guy is what every girl is going for so you lucky lucky!! HAHA. love your fingers its so longggg! =) still remember the first time i saw you i thought: who's that hot chinese guy in md? LOL. then when your name was fadhli i was pretty puzzled hahahha. thanks for being such a great senior=) shall miss all the times where ure around saying all the nice things =) oh s22 rocks rite? HAHA. =) miss ya!

SARAH
- my dearest sweetest prettiest nicest bestest sarah!!! =) think i already said a lot that i wanna say to you in the note thingie but nevermind, shall do it here again=) pretty sarah!!! you know when duying asked me to choose the senior i love the most to write that note to, youre the first one who popped into my mind! =) shall never forget how nice and sweet you were when we first met. at pasir ris mrt rmb? haha. md chalet! then you were telling me all about how you entered md instead of the other dance groups! then we played mahjong =) and the next day we were msging each other deciding whether to go play mahjong again or not! haha. first day of school, you sent me a msg saying if i was lost just call you and u'll rescue me =) awwwww. felt so touched! remember the first two weeks of school when i was still a lost sheep u let me hang around you and your friends in the morning? thankew sarah=) shall never forget that. during my campaign period, i was really troubled and you lent me a listening ear which really really helped. thanks for being the nicest sweetest bestest senior anyone can ask for! i think u really really really really rock=) one of the nicest persons in the world!!!! love ya sarah =) Ps. i really dont think TT is THAT hot. lol.

WEISHYUAN
- can you spell H-Y-P-E-R???? hahahahhaha. weishyuannnnn super hyper and high all the time, are you on drugs HEHEHEHE. =P yayy thanks for being such a niceee senior too!!!!! =) when i was new and all, i used to hang around with you and sarah alot remember? =) haha, and first two weeks of school, i used to go find you guys in the morning too so thanks for letting this poor little lost sheep cling on to you then =) i remember when i was sick you also msged me a really really sweeet msg, so thankew weishyuan =) shall miss al your exagerrated actions dearly! AND not to forget the squealing when ______ dancers are around LMAO! love ya! *mauckz*

XIANGLONG
- OG 26 ROCKSSSSS!!!!! hahahha. my funkiest ogl ever! still remember the first time i met you you taught me MAHJONG!! omg all those chinese terms i was so blur!! hahaha ( but my chinese A1 okay so cannot laugh at me HEH) then also remember the time you were telling me all the orientation info before 2006, then you said u had to leave msn to go call your og ppl to brief them............ then WHAM, a few mins later my hp rang and it was you! HAHHAHAHAHA. oh and the time you and qihan used your hp to call me to play a prank on me............ without realising i HAVE your number? HEEHEE. that was hilarious. thanks for making dance prac and og26 so fun with all your lame smartass jokes!!! you rock=) thanks for intro-ing me to the world of gambling (MAHJONG!!!) and cheating ( THE COKE MACHINE!!) loll. shall miss all you fun-ness and crappiness in dance. thanks for being such a great senior!!! =) ps. cockpop!!!!

ALAN
- dirty-minded alan!!!!! LOL. quote from nani's poem: if its not sick not dirty it wont bring laugher. HAHAHAHHA. oh man, shall miss all your dirty jokes! and your wise crack jokes! and the fact that you actually dont LAUGH when u crack jokes omg how do u do that?!?!?!??! also the super heck care nothing fazes you attitude!! haha. oh yes, shall miss your dancing tooooo! the whole " lose control im high on drugs wheeeee" style! interesting =) thanks for being such a great senior and may u have fun searching for more and mroe eyecandies round the school LMAO. except now without dance practices surely there's lesser eye candies for you right HEEHEEHEE. =)

PANGWEI
- the senior i acted as WAHAHAHHAHA. like you said, quite as easy role eh? which means you lead an easy life u lucky lucky!! lol. actually you know when i first met you i thought you and alan were twinsss? oooops. haha, ok im a bit blind but hey tall and skinny! TWINS! =) first impression of you was a really really quiet guy but that changed man when i spoke to you online and when u got closer to *ahem* steph. HEEHEEEHEEEEE. one word to describe you : DEEP=) heh, i think i still owe you a treat you know but hey ure such a NICE senior u'll pretend u forget rite? =) *grins* thanks for being such a nice senior=) shall miss all your silent wise cracks hahaha.

I LOVE YOU SENIORS!!!!!! =)

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Painful
Terrifying
Morbid

OKAY. that just about sums up PTM today. urghhhhh. my mum spoke to mrs peter thia first. ermms. she said something along the lines of im too busy being ms popular ms rah-rah and ms centre of attention to actually use my brains to STUDY. she says im bright. HAH. how can ANYONE who has heard me converse in chinese say im bright? LMAO. then thia asked me to excuse her and my mum for a while and they talked for AGESSSS omg. without me to censor im pretty sure it didnt go well bleahx.

on to ms amelia heng. hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm. okay ptm is usually for the teacher to complain about the student right? oh but after complaining a bit my mum turned into her usual angry self that amelia heng got so scared and starting helping me saying: give her a second chance. she can do it one. LOL. see, my mum isnt the most famous and well known parent in chij and tk for NOTHING. she's really scaryyyy. hmphhhs oh well. then ms heng told my mum to stop my dance until promos is over or i'll just DIE. so my mum imeediately went to terrorise my fren omg. liek terrorising my teacher isnt enough she went to fur and said she wanted me to only come for one prac a week!!!!!!!!!

then after a few hours or something my mum suddenly said im going for all my dance pracs after all LOL. fickle fickle fickle. lalalallalallalla. okay dance tml. bleahx but no seniors =( sooooooo gloomy.

oh yes, today during civics the first speaker was super cute! a dot in a dot HAHAHAHAH. me and phoebe has decided to both marry him when we grow up LOL.

oh and as of today, im gonna mug really really really hard. i dont care. i promised ms heng a C and im gonna try as hard as i can to get it. if i could pull up my f9 AMATH grades (throughout sec3 and 4) to a A1 in Os, i freaking dont see why i cant do this now. used to do maths whenever i felt troubled in sec school. tried it again today and thankfully it still works! *grins* maths really help to let off steam yay.

sam is gonna be a mugger!! oh yay.
see, samantha and mugger even rhyme!!! it must be fate HEH.
okok, lets pretend we DONT KNOW samantha and slacker rhymes toooo.

shhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

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forgot to add: my nike and addidas shoes got stolen on ndc eve when i wasnt home.

ok so on ndc eve i had one hp, one wallet and 2 shoes kana stolen.

$$#!%$!*@#

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hmmmm just read my previous entry and it isnt exactly very coherent is it? hahaha, spelling errors everywhere and i typed: NDC and ADHOC! which is weird cos it should have been: NDC ADHOC and MD CHALET! hahahahha. guess i really lacked sleep. slept for 18WHOLEHOURS oh my freakkkk. im such a loser. HAHAHA.

okay. lets blog in time order ( cant spell chronological or something). my last last entry left off at the few of us ( me celine jafnie yisong woonjeck jonathan) staaying up at the canteen. the moment i ended my entry the NIGHTMARE began. oh yes, it was so movie like and everything. BANG! tables and chairs in the canteen started toppling over. the postcard stand too, and postcards were flying around. all the fans turning like mad and the "gate closed" flew too. LOUDER BANG! the 9 tables me woonjeck justine and fadhli spent AGES to stack outside for the banner all came crashing down. here i would like to thank woonjeck and desmond for being such heroic guys to rush out in the pouring rain to save my dear lignum banner =)) thanks guys! after trying to save as much stuff as we could before the rain really became horrendous, we were all teasing jonathan LOUDLY thinking he wasnt around to hear then all of a sudden we looked up and there he was standing above the stairs grinnning and laughing at us!!! and we tried to hide and he laughed even more LOL. evil uncle chua!!! HAHAHAHA.

went to pump lignum balloons with woonjeck omg its a freaking slow and painful process we almost died. then woonjeck couldnt take it got fadhli to replace him. then after a while ernsheong replaced fadhli. oh man, ern shoeng and i worked uber uber fast cos time was super running out. the normal time was 2hrs for 6 classes me and ernsheong did 1hr for 6 classes OMG WE ARE GOOD MUAHAHHAHAHAHa. ndc arrived. =) it was just yesterday we had our first ndc meeting! ndc was a success!!! yay, cant really rmb much details to elaborate but it was GOOD cos all the teachers apparently said it was the most interesting ndc EVER! oh yay. ndc adhoc we rock =) during house cheering competition lignum was suddenly uber uber loud, oh man im so prouddd of you guys =) thankews lignumites=) love you all muchly! especailly the sudden spontaneous train thingie! and of course my dear AIRBUS for supporting lignum toooo=)

ndc adhoc--> jon christine gerad aline peiyi faizal desmond joli tiff jessie justine yisong meiyu audrey ritwik! ndc adhoc rocks! love ndc loads and loads and loads=) will miss you guys now that ndc is over but hey! we can always have outings *GRIN* OR maybe we'll all get together when we go for uncle and aunty chua's WEDDING right? HEEHEEHEE *evil grin*

LIGNUM HAT --> WE ROCK!!! DUH. hahahha. anyway thanks a million guys, wouldnt have gotten through ndc without all your help. hey so what if we didnt win, im glad we did a great job. fad and jus: ooooh the tables were real heavy but hey we did it=) oh yes, we better add woonjeck as an honourary hat member since he helped so much too LOL. gha: thanks for helping out with the arranging of everything, getting the balloons all proper and GETTING YOUR CLASSMATES!! =) your classmates rock man! haha. oh and "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" HEEHEEEHEEEEEEE. oh man, it would have been REALLY embarrassing if you didnt clarify it. LOL.

after ndc, i went back to worrying like CRAZY about my hp and wallet. erm, me and woonjeck spent ages and ages in school viewing the videotapes of the night of CRIME lol. was quite blur but i recognised the tennis guys who walked out ( yes its times like this a bright yellow bag does help, kenneth) so started calling tennis ppl up to ask them who else they saw lol. called kenneth and he's so blur! called alex, he's a bit better but also couldnt give us much lead except we realised some of those on the screen with them are NOT TENNIS PPL!!!!!! HEH. viewed the videos a million times more and formed a hypothesis which i shant say here in case it gets in the way of investigations but i must say its quite a good lead *GRIN*

went home to bathe. supposed to go for md chalet straightaway but my half hour nap turned into 1.5 hours. arrived late at md chalet. people were bbqing and whee the food was nice=) play charades!!! YAY my group was the FROGS! me and luq came up with " ribbit = yes, ribbit ribbit = no" and it was sooo ocute!!! HAHAHAHAHAHA. our group was super smart oh yay. after that rushed upstairs to the 5 chickens to do up the seniors stuffs=) each had to choose the senior we love most and i chose pretty sarah!!! =) *smiles* after that rushed back down to play the candles game. haha was funny, only girls can attack so my group it was be who was the attacker. luq and xianglong were my trusty defenders as i chiong forward to blow the opp's candle MUAHAHHAHHA. so fun. won quite a bit HEH. must be my great skills rite :P

skit time. only had two words to say: WAKE UP. hahahahha. pangwei mahh. oh wells. it was a simple job man. lucky pw must be leading a simple life everyday!! but everyone thought it was FUNNY so yay =)

handover time. it was funny and sad all at the same time. some of the stuff they said reminded us of the happy and funny times. some just made me cry. nani's poem made me cry. it was so touching and tear inducing. fadhli and xl said something to the effect of eye candies in md. awwww girls! we rock HAHAHA. and qihan's 2 page long speech was SURPRISINGLY not sleep-inducing HEH. quite interesting really, the story bout how all the md grandseniors surrounded him and luq was grinning from ear to ear cos MRS TAN ARRIVED!! hahahahhaa. and it ended off with HAPPY NATIONAL DAY. omg.

played cards with xianglong, alan, luqman, syamil, qihan......................................... ok, yes i pulled an all nighter again. I KNOW its crazy but heck, i cant sleep in public. seriously. im weird. HAHAHA. think i was the only girl who pulled an all nighter lol. only other person to do that was xianglong i think LOL. HEH im turning into SUPERGIRL!!!!! wheeeeeee. at 5plus am we went to watch sunrise. =) but only a few of us werent piggies and could go HEEHEEHEE. xianglong nani luqman pearlyn kairu ferleen and me =) FUN. xianglong was playing all the mushy mushy slow songs HAHAHA and we were singing along to it while waiting for the sunrise. omg, dunno why but i knew the lyrics of every single song!!! im not THAT a radio addict right? anyway waited REALLY REALLY long then suspected something was wrong. turns out we couldnt see sunrise from where we were URGHHHH. ok well nvm, we formed the NO SUNRISE gang =) oh yayyyy.

went back. fer fell asleep. the rest of the gang started disturbing sleeping forms by singing nat day songs HEH. qh woke up and moved to another room cos i guess we were super noisy! minh was pro, slept through our singing heehee. after a while started to gather people to go breakfast!!! oh yay =) sam's wonderful idea to go for prata HEH. the prata ppl are liek SOOOO HIGH! we were singing every single nd song loudly in public as we walk. this guy told us to keep quiet but we didnt care HEH. WE LOVE SINGAPORE!!!! was basically the grand seniors, jo duying xianglong alan and me=) WHEE. we are the ndc singing company HEE. oh and duying and me wished two complete strangers HAPPY nat day!

went back. the SINGING company were so high we kept singing and singing until the lazy pigs whe didnt go were so amused. we acted like some choir ,practising out first note HEH. the ndc songs soon turned into normal songs =) great fun singing yayyyy. played catch the cork with jo for hours such great exercise LMAO.

ermmm. cant rmb much. except was quite in a bad mood. then just before i left i actually cried cant rmb why either. ermmm. but only jo saw luckily. yep. went home slept. FOR 18HOURS OMG. hahahahha.

today didnt mug AT ALL. went shooping yay, bought a pink and black newbalance sweater. oh and nike's new collection is red and Black SO HOT!!! hot hot hot, tried on a SB, really liked it but was outta stock. AWWWWW. i want it badly!!! hmphh.

oh yes, still no phone, mum refuses to buy and im broke, so guys, dont contact me ya. ok gtg sleep nights =) oh yes, im sick le but shhhhh dont tell my mum im trying to hide it as much as i can.

OH FREAK PTM TML IM SO DEAD. KILL ME.

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its 4pm, just got back from MD chalet. had no sleep fr twe nights in a row. (NDC! and ADHOC!) now im practically noddin off so lets update tonight. or tml morning. or afternnoon. see how long it takes.

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currently in school its 103am. using jafnie's com to blog cos im feeling so stressed and depressed. SIGH.

a couple of hours back, at ten plus was kinda one of my darkest moments. it was dark, literally. me woonjeck fadhli and justine were trying our damnest to carry the super heavy tables to stack up at the other end of the track. and it kept falling and we kept doing it all over again. and i lost my phone and wallet, along with woonjeck's hp and till now its missing =( no idea where it is. we left it on the chair at grandstand at 910 (5mins before gate closes) and carried a table, by the time we came back it was FREAKING GONE.

URGH. i hate myself. wallet has $$, exylink! and every single neoprint ive ever taken in my life. hp has all my messages ( which i really dun wanna lose) and all my pics which i cant lose either. my mum is so gonna kill me. i dont know what to do. felt like crying. actually almost did but thanks to woonjeck and desmond for cheering me up at the grandstand. altho it had nothing to do with him, he helped me try to search. and when i almost started crying, he said something that cheered me up really: think about it. now's the darkest moment it can only get better from here.

thanks fadhli gha and justine for everthing too. lignum rocks. im sure we'll do a good job tml. i know circumstances are against us, suddenly found out helium can only last 6 hrs so can only pump at 4am onwards BUT ndc needs us from 4am. i know, its sucks but im sure we'll survive throught it. lignum love.

ndc adhoc =) love.

still depressed. balloons not pumpes. worried. urgh. i dont know. life sucks. blahh. but im not gonna cry. not when theres so many ppl supporting me. thanks everyone for your concern =)

im not gonna break down again. no way.

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just finished doing up LIGNUM house affiliates instruction sheets, HAT house instruction sheets and cheer sheets. omg my brain is going bonkers. and my printer has ran out of ink after all that printing.

nothing much today. ate some chocolate again. oh was trying to do integration tutorial, only completed 2 BMQs when i just fell asleep on my arm. urgh. it was 5pm. when i next woke up, the clock read 740pm!!!!! URGHH. i suck. and worse my entire right arm was numbed like anything. hmphhhhhhhhhhhhs.

oh yes i had abalone today *grins* its amazing how much i rely on external factors like happy food to cheer myself up. HEH.

okok shall sleep soon. staying over in school tml to do NDC!!! HEH, me and fadlhi plan to sneak off during sleep time to finish up lignum stuffs. then md chalet on tue!!!! which means two nights without sleep oh man.... hahaha. but it'll be fun =)

oh no i think im falling sick.

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i honestly dont know what's wrong with myself.

broke down today. i dont know why. for some inexplicable reason i just started crying. there was no trigger or anything. was just sitting alone at home thinking and it just happened. was thinking about my life i guess. ndc, lignum, and my schoolwork. realised i havent done a single tutorial ever since CTs ended. started imgaining myself being retained................................ its freaking scary. my parents were quite alarmed. i mean, anyone who knows me would probably know, im not the type who stresses over schoolwork and whatnot. a born slacker through and through. i laugh my work off and i dont know how come ive been doing well the past 10years but whatever that helped me do that, its gone. i cant slack and score anymore. and the reality frightens me. all of a sudden im not slacking yet scoring and laughing my days away. oh freak. someone help me please.

went on a chocolate shooping spree after that. bought two packets of hersheys kissables, one dove bar, 3 kinder bruneos....... quite a lot actually. and today alone i ate 1 packet of hershey kissables, 1/3 of a dove bar, 1/2 of a kinder bruneo and 5 TEASPOONS of honey. urghhhhh. and guess what im not feeling any better. anyone who knows me again would know i get extremely high on choc. but all i feel is... i dunno. fear anxiety and numbness at the same time. oxymoron i know but oh wells. sigh, my food today screams calories!!! but considering i didnt eat breakfast OR lunch OR dinner ( depression and real food cant go) i guess i didnt commit that much of a calorie crime.... I HOPE. oh wells.

ndc meeting today. lignum pyramid thingie. lignum painting thingies.... blah, not in the mood to actually blog about my entire day. except i fell asleep on the bus and alighted wrong stop again. im turning into a zombie omg.

nothing else to say. blah.

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today 3 people came to me and said i looked like i was about to cry.
5 people came to me and asked if i was okay.

hmmmm. am i walking around like my pet just died? oh dear. but can't help it much. my mood's bad. i lack sleep. am super busy. NDC. LIGNUMs. blah. oh and im not doing any of my work at all and i'll probably get retained or something. and TWO of my teachers wanna see my mum and thing is i poned econs remedial yesterday for lignum meeting BUT i told my mum i went so now that they're meeting...................... im so freaking dead.

OH LIFE STINKS.

or rather my life does. i guess my happy little smiley facade is fading faster than expected. considering all the people who asked me if i was ok today. winston even said i was really weird today. OKAY. shall try to not look like someone just. yep.

jenson ong's story really cheered me up. HAHAHA. the one about the guy who had to solve a problem which was to measure the height of a tall building using a barometer. he answered several namely:

1. ties a rope to the barometer and drop it down. measure the length of rope used.
teacher: you have to use physics to solve!
2. throw the barometer from the top of the building and drop it down. time it. use s= U2 + at.
3. tie a rope to the barometer, throw it from top. swing it to make oscillations and use formulas to calculate.
4. bring barometer out on a sunny day measure the shadow. measure the building's shadow and do a ratio with the barometer's reading.
5. climb the stairs of the buliding and place barometer against the wall and count number of barometer units for the height!!!! LOL.
the best method though....
6. GO TO THE BASEMENT, KNOCK ON THE MANAGER'S DOOR AND SAY:

look here sir, is a beautiful barometer and it can be yours if u tell me how tall is this building.

LMAO. jenson ong cheered me up slightly=) was a super hilarious story.

did ndc from after school all the way till night. WHEE. became hyper cos at first only me jonathan woonjeck and varun were there carrying the uber heavy platforms! so cos im the only girl when i carried the thing with jon ALONE they were so impressed and di a sam eng cheer muahahhahaha.

when i say sam eng you say WOAH!
sam eng WOAH
sam eng WOAH!

lol, courtesy of varun and woonjeck. then started doing crazy things on the stage like mass dance, jumping up and down like mad and playing afool. LOL. stress reliever totally. rehearsal went quite well =) NDC ROCKS MY SOCKS! yay. lub ya guys much and much and muchly. spending the entire time at grand stand was great fun too!!! eye candieSSSS alert! lol, me and celine kept going: 3 o clock direction! 5 o clock! there! HHAHAHAHHA

after ndc it was super late. on the way home started stressing out back again. did a whole 2 page long sheet of lignum things to complete tml. bleah, i have NDC!!! urgh. split me into 2 please! ok shall go sleep tml must be SUPERWOMAN le.

nights. i hope i dream stress free dreams.

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zombie-fied day.
urgh can't believe im surviving on 3 hours of sleep.
2am-5am. its more like a nap in secondary school context.
bleah.
fell asleep and missed my stop this morning.
fell asleep for 2 GP periods and didnt complete my essay.
WALKING ZOMBIE!!!!! ahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh.

oh yes, thanks to all those who turned up for Lignum meeting today=) *smiles* really appreciate it. LIGNUM LOVE!

ndc(:

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"bring it back on" on replay mode

like i once said, that song is one song that can cheer you up a bit when you're down.

its 1158 and just got home at 10plus after NDC stuffs. when i left actually there were still more NDC ppl there. wow. you know what, i think we're all very determined to do a great job. and as long as we do our best, i'm sure NDC will turn out to be a success. i love NDC adhoc =) did the NDC whoosh today and for some reason i remembered out very first meeting in the canteen. HAHA. it was really funny we were all joking around, inventing scandals, singing (off key) national days songs, singing happy birthday desmond a million times and of course not to forget the K-I-S-S-I-N-G cheer HEH. *sniggers sniggers* NDC rocks. seriously gonna miss it once tuesday is over.

feedback session today omg i was actually really nervous before it. haha, tried really really hard to exchange the class i got to s22 my senior class but sasha refused!!! YIKES! if it was s22 i wouldn't have been so nervous since its all my seniors there =) but in the end went to s16! my ogl class and also quite a few md seniors in there but nevertheless was still freaked out before going in! after hearing all the stuff they fired during speech day OMG! but turns out s16 is a really really nice class though =) *smiles* they gave constructive feedback and were pretty friendly. except of coourse *ahem ahem* xianglong who went toilet for like sooooo long and qihan who was busy yakking until i had to stare at him like what teachers usually do! HEH. oooh, aaron seems to be very different from what i thought he would be LOL. i mean he IS the smartest guy in J2, thought he will be super serious and studious. but HE WAS CHATTY!! haha and NICE cos i ended up using all the items on his desk as my paperweights HEEHEEHEE. ohhh! i touched his pencilcase does that mean the genuis-ness will rub off me too? WAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH. lmao ok im a bit insane.

HAT meeting today too, FINALLY we did the ndc cheers and everything WHEE! phew. now i won't be so freaking worried everyday!

OKAY can't blog any longer. need to do GPVA, do cheer sheet, do lignum note, plan NDC stuffs all by tml morning!!! AHHHHHHHHHHHH! okay. chionging timeeeeeeee =)

spread a little love:

celeste: hey dear cheer up okay? i just realised a hug can work wonders. although i hugged you to cheer you up, it inadvertently cheered me up too. *smiles* still rmb the first time i hugged you we were practically strangers lol. so cheer up, be happy. thanks for listening thanks for actually making me stronger. cos there i was feeling down and when i saw you, i thought to myself HEY stop feeling down there's a friend who needs your help you must be strong for her. so THANK YOU celeste. i hope ure feeling better LOVE!

tseruey: hey dun be disappointed sad or discouraged okay? take life as it comes. cheer up. sometimes all you need is to believe in yourself thats all. what others think/choose dont really matter okay? take care. LOVE!

peiyi: hey dear. thanks for being such a great friend SAM-LOVER! haha, i know ure feeling sad and depressed but whatever it is im here for you ya? and thanks for offering help with my acads. i dont wannt retain either =( take care. LOVE!

is it just me or does it sound like international sad day today?
celine always tells me: at least ure still smiling

its getting harder now.
but i'll try. no matter what =)

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yes im sad demoralised hurt depressed concerned frustrated... yes i feel like crying...
all that but im not, i repeat I AM NOT pissed.

seriously. i'm not angry with any of you for this. i guess with lack of communication this sorta stuffs is always bound to happen. its human i guess. but what i wasn't exactly counting on was to hear from it all from outsiders. and not one of you came to me about it. why?

im open to opinions seriously. have i ever given an impression otherwise? im not scary... rite? so why dont come to me about it? I DON'T KNOW. this has made me so confused actually. we're all in this together, and i think the point and aim of this is to grow and learn from it after everything. so why not tell each other whatever's bothering us so we can all grow and learn together?

i wanted us to be a group of good friends. buddies through and through. support each other when the other needs the support. and i still do. i want it so bad. but now i don't know if we're all striving for the same things. i seriously don't. im not a mindreader. so if theres anything, come to me. please.

of course the biggest irony is i actually sang one of your praises like CRAZY to someone yesterday. cos i believe in supporting your own people through and through. then today it was like WHAM. shocked. hurt.

and no, please don't think i hate you. cos i don't. its so primary schoolish if i actually do. i just want to seriously iron out whatever misunderstandings we have. and work together as a team. as a bunch of seriously good friends.

i want to put on my rose-tinted glasses once again.
is it possible?

please say it is. i wanna make it happen.